In a Nutshell Pt 1

There's so much I want to write, but I'm afraid that it will be really long, so I'll attempt at highlighting the really crucial/important things that have happened in the last week.

To Be Or Not To Be???

So I finally went to see the talent agent last week...and it was short of interesting. Our meeting consisted of her telling me how much I'd make if I decided to sign up with them, how, because she thinks I have an exotic look would me help get jobs a lot faster to reading samples of commercials they've done in the past...and my favorite one...walking the runway. I really didn't think I had it in me...but thanks to the tons of episodes I've watched of America's Next Top Model, I had a few tips under my belt and worked the runway. If only I was at least 5'7...she said I had attitude and sass for the runway...but it will not be. This whole time I'm thinking 'where's the catch...this is too good to be true' and I was right. So the deal is that in order to be prepared for any of these commercials or to be cast in a movie or TV show, I'd have to train with them and in order to do that I'd pay a mere $5,800! If only she could read my mind, which was saying ' are you fucking kidding me?' But no, I pretended like she said the lessons would be free. She then attempted to scare me less by saying ' if you decide to pay in full, we'll cut that to $2,000' and I still had the same reaction. I lied to her and said I'd be back the following day, knowing full well, there was NO WAY I was going to give away $2,000 considering I had just moved and still living on my savings. The concept though of modeling or doing commercials is something I'd still like to pursue, but hopefully in a cost free way...so this is really not the end...just the beginning.

Leadership Summit

In all the years I lived in Chicago, I never attended the Leadership Summit hosted by Willow Creek for reasons I can't remember, but this year Jeremy's parents had extra tickets and so I was able to attend at one of the satellite locations. There are two strings of thought still circulating my brain. One being what Bill Hybels talked about " A Vision Worth Dying for". I have to say at first I wasn't really feeling inspired by his message, but half-way through it occurred to me that maybe I don't know my vision very well. And I had this strong urge to start discovering and seeking after what my vision for life is and then begin to live life with that in mind. The second one was pretty powerful. John Ortberg gave a message from Esther, that has to be the best I've heard, yet. A few things stuck out to me about Esther...here was a young woman...a minority who entered a beauty pageant... maybe it was just for fun or just for the sake of entering a pageant, but God ended up using her to save a whole generation. Esther could have been sucked up into the whole power thing, since she was now a Queen, but ended up using her power for the good of her people. John also talked about shadow missions which he described as missions ' closely related to our calling and gifting that are hijacked by our egos and wounds'. Truth is shadow missions are always easier to follow because they don't require much. I kept wondering what my shadow mission is and I still haven't quite come up with a full description, but I think I have an idea of what that might be. I think there's so much to learn from Esther and I intend to study and contemplate on how she lived her life and garner lessons.